Hello dear reader,

I have a job, a house, loving family and great friends. I have my health and everyone I know is fairly healthy and quite happy. I live in the great city Rotterdam, where I was also born. I bought the house I loved, in the neighbourhood i wanted, my morgage is very doable, i have money left on my spending account every month and I started my second study, to get my second bachelor degree.
I have a truly blessed life. I am thankful for it every moment I am aware of this.

I also have ADD, and i have a fairly theosophical outlook on what life is. You might even call it spiritual. I did untill yesterday, when I saw a lecture about theosophy and realised that this matched my ways of viewing the world quite nicely. You learn something every day haha.

Anyway, having this mindset, I have learned sertain things, the law of attraction for one. It is how i got my job, my house, my diagnosis right when I needed it and probably a lot more I am not even aware of right now.
It is a great and powerfull tool, but it has a way of working, eve when you are not using it.

See i love my life, but not everything in it fits anymore. I have had the nagging feeling that I can do more with who I am as a person and everything I have learned so far. So i have been focussing on this a lot, focussing on this nagging incomplete feeling. wich led to universe showing me more and more how incomplete it is. since that is the vibe i am invting in.
i did not focus my energy and intent on what i did want to achieve, i focused it on not being my best. so i was less and less my very best self and got more an dmore confirmation of this. not very motivational now, is it?

When you start to believe the negativity of others, because it reflects your fear and your self image, that becomes a slippery slope.
As you slide down it into more self doupt, at sertain points during that slide, you have the chance to reach out and grab something or someone to help you get the fuck off that journey down. I know I have missed a few outstrechted hands, escape hatches and rope ladders, but at some point, I looked around and saw that rope with knots I could grab.
And I did.

I started a climb, one knot at the time, back to who I am. Back to what I want from life. Back to my dreams and passions. Back to what i can and should do. Up towards the realisation of why I feel un-whole, and what great gifsts i have to offer the world.

I am now, out of the slippery slope. I have learned that I am not living to my full potential. o realise that i might not comletely know what my full potiential might entail, but I do know what direction feels right. I do know that i need to make a start and start moving towards my dreams. And that every step and positive action and thought I create, will create that equal reaction from the universe.

These are my first steps.
My tweets, my video’s, this blog, this website, the book im writing, the workshop I am creating this very month, the help I ask and recieve, the motivation, the inpiration, going to a lecture to see how to speak well infront of a crowd of people (and learning that i am theosophical to boot!).
And in the long run: the study I do to be able to become a coach with an actual degree to coach professionally (bachelor degree in applied psychology) next to already having a bachelor degree in social work.
It is all leading up to something great! Something inspiring, something i can give and share and offer to this lovely world filled with people who need that little nudge to recocnise their rope, their escape hatch and rope ladder.
Every soul you touch in a positive way, is a soul who will spread that positivity.
All you need is a start.
This is mine.
Now lets see where we can end up! I can’t wait!

March 21st 2016, Rotterdam